Lucy watched Mark and
Jade as they laughed over a shared joke, she sat looking at them across the
table with a fake smile plastered on her face, she hated times like this, she
hated going out on lunch date with them, she only did it because Jade thinks
she has to go out more often instead of keeping to herself, deep down she knows
she is afraid she might try to commit suicide again. Lucy came from the
countryside to study in the city, the only child of her parents. She lived on a
farm with her parents before she got a scholarship to study in the city. It had
been a joyful thing for her parents and she had been elated about the change of
environment and the new people she was going to meet. All her expectations
about all that started to deflate before her very eyes, she wore her auburn
hair down all the time and always dressed in oversized sweater and faded jeans
and boot. Jade her roommate a perfect picture of perfection was of average
height, a brunette, the first time they met was their first day in college, she
breezed in with a big smile and beautiful face with big blue eyes deep enough to
drown anyone, little wonder she has no issues getting guys, she mused absent
minded.
Are you okay? Jade touched her arm lightly her eyes full of
concern.
She jolted back to reality as she touched her; I’m feeling kind
of tired, that’s all. I’m just going to go back to the room and rest; she
picked her bag and stood up.
Almost immediately, Jade snatched up her bag, 'we should go
together then, we could all go and hang out in the room, shall we Mark?'. She
gave him a wink, Mark stood up reluctantly and smiled, 'anything for you
milady' he said with a mock salute.
They walked slowly from the restaurant towards their hostel,
Jade held Lucy’s hand in hers and tried to get her to talk.
Adjusting to a new environment had been a difficult thing
for Lucy, even back un high school she rarely spoke and sat at the back of the
class, she gets picked on a few times, she had no boyfriend only Tim which she
crushed on throughout the year, he was in the school football team, she’d stay
over pretending to read a book while peeping through it as he practiced, if
wishes were horses she might have tried ridding on one. She never even got to
say ‘hi’ to him.
It was at the time she had given up on her love life and
dedicated herself to her books and only hang out with Jade and whoever her
boyfriend is. It was then she met Jimmy, medium height with a well chiseled jaw
and curvy mouth that spreads into a smile easily, sandy brown hair that always
look like he combs his fingers through it which gives him a ‘rock-star’ look. It had been a steady thing because she was
uncertain and new to the relationship thing; eventually Jimmy broke the walls
she had managed to build around her with his charm.
The night she lost her virginity to him had been at his place,
it was close to the her final examinations for the semester, he had asked her
to come sleep over at his place since his roommate wasn’t going to be around in
which she accepted with a condition that she was going to study first. It went
as planned at first with her trying to concentrate on what she was reading
while he played a game on his Xbox only with his pant, his half- tanned body, muscled chest
and six packs gives her tremors whenever she sees him like that. When she could
no longer take it she went over to his where he was sitting and sat in front of
him. He dropped his console then half dragged her close to him, he cupped her
face in his hands and looked into her eyes,
'What is wrong darling?' he asked
his face full of concern.
She looked down at his lips. 'Nothing, just a slight
headache' she said.
'Well, I just might know how to make it go away', he said
with a devilish grin, and then he kissed her. It wasn’t the first time; in fact
they’d done everything apart from sex.
He carried her to his bed, removed his pant with only his boxers
on, eager for his touch she reached out and pulled him on top of her. She
unhooked her bra, he finished it off by removing it and throwing it in one corner
of the room. The she felt his lips caressing the sensitive sides of her breasts.
Her throat pulsed, she moaned and arched her back from the pleasure which began
to spread through her body. After a while he kissed her navel and his mouth
traced down to the lower part of her abdomen. He undid her jeans and slipped it
down, she kicked it off as his hand groped to touch her.
He entered her with a thrust, a cry escaped her lips with
her fingers digging in to his shoulders, he brought his warm mouth down upon
hers and the involuntary cry was silenced in the deep of the center of his
kiss. He brought about the abandonment he had sought from her from the
beginning of the lovemaking.
After that night her feelings for him became certain
removing every doubt in her. She started noticing he became reluctant to see
her, that fateful afternoon she decided to give him a surprise visit, she
knocked on the door nobody answered it although she could hear voices inside.
She pushed the door open, she saw three of Jimmy’s friend and his roommate
amongst them watching a video she moved closer to them and was shocked to see
herself in it, only to realize that it was the video from the night they made
love. She stood rooted to the spot as if in a trance , tears trickled down her
face , just then Jimmy entered and saw her, he traced her eyes to what she was
staring at, just then she came to her senses , she looked at him then ran out of the house, she kept on
running, stumbled then continued to run till she got to her room shaking and
sobbing at the same time, she went to her bed and curled up into a tight ball
after crying for about one hour she lay
exhausted in her bed, then she got up slowly went to the bathroom and filled
the bath tub up, she got a razor from her reading desk, sank into the tub with
her clothes and boot on, then she slit her wrist. She cried as blood trickled
down her wrist and as life began to drain from her she remembered her parents,
her high school days; the laughter of the students that picked on her rang out
loud in her ears until it began to drown her as she sank into oblivion.
She woke up in the hospital. She spent a week there; Jade
told a lie to cover up her suicide attempt, which she was thankful of although
the doctor didn’t believe her.
She rarely went home at the end of the semester, she decided
to stay back in school solely because she wanted to be alone. As always Jade
spoilt her plan by inviting her over to a camping trip she planned with Mark
earlier on. At first she made excuses which fell into deaf ears and finally
agreed to go.
On that day, they went in Mark's truck, their camping gears
at the rear. It was a short journey; they parked at the side of the road and
made their way to the camp site on foot, hikers frequented the wood this
time of the year. They finally decided on a spot to stay. The sun was beginning
to set by the time they arrived, they set down their camping gears and each one
of them began to make their tent. After she was done Mark told her to go get
some woods they would use to make fire for the night. After she was gone, Mark
confronted Jade about Lucy accompanying them.
'Come on Mark you know I can't let her be on her own after
what happened, I just want her to get over it'. She said gently trying to hold
his hand.
Mark jerked away, 'I don't give a fuck about what happened
to her, that's her fucking business and the girl acts like a freak. You are not
her fucking mom, so why worry yourself about her.
Jade recoiled at the tone of his voice
'Mark are you okay?
She's my friend and don't you dare talk to me like that again'. She said and
began to walk away.
Mark pulled her back forcefully and almost sent her
sprawling in the dirt.
'Now you talk back at me because of that thing or you've been
fucking some other guy, bitch?'
Jade slapped him an angry scowl on her face
'Are you crazy? I'm so done with you I'm gonna go find Lucy
when you are in the right frame of mind I'll be waiting for an apology'.
She began to walk away.
'Mark pulled her back with her hair, bitch we aint done here
and you're going no where'.
Jade fought frantically to loosen her hair from his grip,
then she bit his arm.
Mark, released her abruptly
'Fuck fuck fuck, you fucking bitch' he said rubbing his arm.
He came upon Jade then pushed her back with so much force
fueled by his anger.
Jade staggered back and caught her leg in between a branch
of tree lying on the floor,she went sprawling on the ground, she landed with her back and her head hit a jagged rock
that laid buried in the ground.
A pool of blood began to spread from her head around her
body, Mark went over to her side and dropped on his knees, he called her name
repeatedly then stood up and started pacing like a caged animal. Lucy arrived
with the woods and her eyes caught on Jade lying on the ground with mark pacing
beside her, sensing that some thing might be wrong, she dropped the woods and
ran towards them, she stopped in shock when she saw the blood pooling around
her body. Mark looked over his shoulder and saw Lucy, her eyes met his, what
she saw there sent chills down her spine. She began to back off slowly from
him, Mark rushed towards her then she broke to a run. She ran into the woods,
branches brushed her face as she ran blindly some cut into her skin, she
stumbled over a stump of tree and rolled over before she picked herself up and
continued to run. She stopped dead at a sharp sound, looking over her shoulder
she stifled a scream, all she saw was pitch blackness, ahead of her was the
main road.
'Only if she could make it' she thought to herself.
She increased her
speed looking over her shoulder and seeing nothing. She saw the light ahead of
her, panting, each step echoing in her ears as she ran. A train horn blasted in
the distance, the bell of the stop sign for cars rang out, she stumbled then
landed on her fours, she screamed as if he was upon her, then looked back and
saw him coming towards her in the darkness. She stood up, took a few steps
back, she saw the train light coming closer towards her, she started running
again. She got to the train tracks looked behind her shoulders and saw nothing,
in her fright she crossed the track, as she was about to leave her right foot
caught in between the tracks, the train horn blasted with its full light upon her
face then she heard no more.
Mark watched as the train crushed her from a distance and
retreated into the darkness quietly.